Lathander's Vision
Up in the mountains, what a wonderful journey. The past few days
I have learned much. It has been long, but the sun in the sky has
brought many visions to me during my meditation.
The first vision I saw was my parents. My parents.. -sigh-
they are well missed. I never really knew them.. I was left at the age
of 5 on my own which I had to live on my own. They abused me.. they
used me as their own slave. They were harsh, they were lazy, they
were rude to all. I remember on my 3rd birthday, they slapped me
across the face because I was weak to pick up something that not
even they could carry across the room. The vision of knowing my
parents have came to me.. that vision was hurtful, yet memorized.
All that matters is you remember the past for what it was, and for
knowing what the past people were like, if you hated, liked, or ever
knew.
The second vision that came to my mind is when the
sky turned dark, the clouds gathered around the sky and the tears of
the heavens started pouring into the forest. That night is the night I
remembered my first friend, something I always wanted and desired
for. The vision of knowing a friend, the vision of knowing the personality
and the vision of trust, all in one meditation. This taught me the
vision of one's friendship, the vision of one's help, the vision of one's
personality.
The last vision I had was the vision of my lost love. Love
is harsh, yet it's a feeling one can not explain in words, but maybe only
expressions. Love is a weird thing that happens to most humans, for
it's natural. The day I left her was the day that hurt the most of me as
in I lost something that was a big part of me. This medition vision
taught me the most important of all, think upon your actions before
making them. Sometimes things you do cannot be undone, yet it's
like a permanent vacation that ends within' an hour of your life.
Lathander